Go to burning man

's been said once or twice, I'm a bit on the kooky side. Sure, I'll accept that.
For the last few years I've been going to Burning Man. Every year I eventually get around to writing about my adventrures. Each year the experience has become more focused than the year before. The first year is like "and then and then and then and then this fucking cool thing came outta nowhere DUDE, holy shit I've never seen anything like it" the first year I didn't sleep a wink, I didn't want to miss a single moment of the chaos. This year like any of the others, was quite special for the people I met, and the expereinces I'd created, the special friends I had the great fortune to spend time with.

I was there to work, with four projects in the works for months, Burning Man is show time. Every night dedicated to a different show, Saturday and Sunday night 2 shows each, all of which kept my ass in check, fire performance, and especially pyrotechnics do ask for a certain level of sobriety. Lets just say, as a guess, ah 100%, so I kept myself in order. Quite an interesting perspective on the event. I found the experience quite enjoyable.

This year I went to Burning Man single for the first time since my first year, and had a great time! I did meet some interesting men, went for long walks in the park with a good friend a couple of times, and somehow met the most boring guy ever. How? Fuck knows. On the playa? One'd expect a certain level of 'interesting' as a participant. Not this guy, I don't know how he slipped through the filtration system.

As we rolled off the playa this year, we, as always, discussed next years Ideas. By the time we got home, we were already with our planners out, scheduling creative meetings and performances for 2005. As I type this now I think, I must be fucking crazy. I was soooo busy, and so slammed, and so tapped - I love it though. As I settled back into civilian life new developments have began to bud. I am crazy. All of our hard work begins to pay off =)

In years past I've come home from burning man with new personal goals. Last year, I became aware of my anger, lonliness grief and pain and began to change it all. In the last year I have gone through counciling, preparing excersises to ceremoniously release and let go of the things I have survived, to begin to learn how to endure. This year I think I made my greatest strides in personal development, and really like who I have come to be. I'm almost embarassed by the woman I was even just 2 years ago.